Wednesdays

For the last 2 Wednesdays I have walked out of my youth group feeling refreshed and renewed, mentally and spiritually. It seems that I have finally begun to change. My choices had caught up to me, and my guilt has driven me to repent. What I had become, sickened me. What I had done, hurt others and myself. I once believed, and still do, that I have no right to be forgiven. My sins are terrible, and the pain I have caused will never fully heal, but God has shown me unimaginable mercy in his forgiveness. How can I ever repay the debt I owe? Money cannot buy eternity, nor can a thousand lifetimes of servitude. So then, what can I do? All I have is my body, my words, my works, and my love. I give them all to him. He deserves so much more, but it is all I have. I can only hope, and trust that it is enough for him. That God will take all I can give, and use it to do what he wishes. Tonight, I have decided to step out of the boat, to let God take me where he needs me to go. Even if this means leaving my comfort zone.